Stop Making Your Life a Choice

We can go get some food or find something to do.

We have to go get some food and then we will go to the movies.

These two sentences are the same in many ways but the only thing that is wrong is the fact that the first makes living a choice and the second makes living a pursuit.

Living shouldn’t be an option. We are not just here to think of maybe or possibly or sometime or someday. That perpetual “maybe later” or “next week” or “next month” is the slow stall of momentum. Making life a choice is a very easy way to become unmotivated.

Only when we make living a MUST is when we begin to actually live. Don’t wait until things are “perfect” or “feel right” because 9 times out of 10 they never will. There will always be something off or a feeling that doesn’t make living feel as important as you would like or dream it to be.

When life is made into an option, momentum actually gets worse. Suddenly everything feels imperfect, as if the right time will never come. Tomorrow will always seem like it has more potential. Next month will always be “better.” The simple truth is it won’t. Next month will not be a better time to start living, it really won’t. Habits become just that. If living is optional today it will continue to be optional next month, next year and the next 10 years.

Make life a MUST, and then life will continue to be a must next month, next year and the next ten years.

Stop waiting for perfection, that simply does not exist in limbo. True perfection will be found when you stop waiting for it and start actively pursuing your dreams. Life is happening right now, and is the most precious thing you could waste waiting for tomorrow.

Fitness: My Journey

Since I have obtained sobriety and am free from all of my party ways, I have found myself looking to fill my time. I want to work on this stronger, healthier, and more authentic version of myself. The first step on that journey was getting sober and staying that way! This took a lot more work than I ever expected.

Now that I am on the other side of sobriety and can assure myself that I have zero desire to fall back into old habits, I want to work on creating some new ones. In comes a favorite of mine, fitness.

Since I was young I have enjoyed activities based on physical agility and drive. Sports, track and field, soccer, really anything that involves some physical movement has always made me smile (as it does most people, actually).

That is why after many years of being back and forth with any athletic pursuits, I have decided to dive in to full body work outs. HIIT sessions are a great way to raise the heart rate, burn deeply while at the same time, constantly changing your sets to keep working out; fun and fast paced. Which are the two keys, (fun and fast paced) that made me fall in love with athletics at a young age.

So, with 2020 right around the corner I felt it was the perfect time to commit myself to the fit and healthy me I know I am inside! Although it is 2020 soon, the New Year itself did not spark this motivation.

Even while I was actively using, drinking, and partying.. every month or so I would go through this huge over drive and purge my self of all of my bad habits for a day, a week, or sometimes longer. Very sporadically I would decide I needed an over haul. So I would do that, change my entire life in one day. That would last for a little then I would go right back to my familiar routines and of course drinking and only worsening my health and state of mind.

One thing is certain though, even when I was at the lowest of some of my lows, my physical activity and health were always on my mind. I guess we can see what kind of damage we are doing, even if we don’t have the basic tools to help change that damage, at the time.

This is the first time the thought of getting fit and healthy isn’t overtaking my every thought or putting some huge amount of pressure on me. Instead it is bringing my excitement and a feeling of self-control which is much needed in my life.

The ability to control something. The ability to create something new. To re-create me!

On December 20, 2019 I am joining the gym! This is going to be a huge step on my recovery journey. I have joined gyms before with anxiety always jumping in the way of my goals. I always felt afraid to be on my own in a gym, overwhelmed and now that I am aware of why, and how I feel those things, they have become a lot simpler to navigate.

The gym is going to be a great place to feel my sobriety and also work on my body, mind, and spirit! Since, exercise also benefits your mood, and attitude you could say it deeply improves your mind’s function and your overall spiritual well-being.

I will be combining HIIT sessions, the gym, and biking into a set routine to bring me into 2020, and the future. Also, I will continue backpacking/hiking too!

This is the most calm, and excited I have been to take on a new project in a very long, long, long time. Words can’t even explain where I am at in my head this past year. It has been full of good and bad days, but something in me clicked. I am finally able to see where I’m able to go, not just where I came from! The future is bright friends! xo.

Moon in Libra

Lune in Libra requires a sense of equality over all things. This energy finds peace and calm by making things fair. War, stress, or messy emotion can pain this lunar energy. Benevolence and love creator. Happiness and emotional freedom is the way to this Moons heart. Ruled by Venus, this moon sign gets along well through art and beauty.

The Moon

Deeper feelings and necessity is present from the Moon. The Moon attains unconcious thoughts and emotions. Reflections of ourselves are found in this enlightened planet. Conception of immortality are found through the Moon.

colour: white

metal: silver

crystal: moonstone

Libra

Harmony and balance, Libra is the Princess of the Zodiac. She has enduring love for beauty and fair. Injustice for her is painful, she does not stand by idol and suffer. Movement through art and communication avant-garde is Libra. Ruled by Venus, Goddess of love.

element: air

planet: venus

quality: cardinal